As I'm sure you saw, today was just as hard as Momma anticipated. But, it's almost over. On this chilly, rainy, late April Easter Sunday I was overwhelmed by the unfairness and emptiness of the holiday without you. You should have been here to run around, chasing eggs, discovering chocolate bunnies and baskets. You should have been wearing a special outfit while we snapped tons of pictures. Instead...it's just a day. A sad day. I had to suck the air out of the meaning of the day to survive. It's a Sunday. A day. Just a day.
I think back to last Easter with joy, peace, appreciation. It was a warm, balmy Easter and we got to visit in the sunshine with our families...sharing our special Peanut. You were all smiles for most of the day, but refused to take a nap. Stubborn 'Nut, just like your Momma! I was so concerned that you'd be a tired, cranky boy by the time we got to Gram and Pop's house. But we got there, changed you into a comfy outfit and you charmed everyone - Gram especially - with smiles and hugs. I've included some of my most favorite Peanut pics from that very day. Peanut in his Froggy Jammies. Deeeeeelightful. I can almost feel the sunshine, smell the warm breeze of that day as I gaze at your glow.
Sweet Peanut. You are the sunshine in my heart and tears on my face this evening. Love, love, love. To the moon and back.