Sunday, September 22, 2013

"I Love You"

Peanut -

Tonight Momma heard a phrase she's been aching to hear for years.   A phrase she thought she would hear from you...a phrase she thought she would never hear after you left this world.

While you had mastered a few words and phrases, you never got to a point that you could say "I love you."  The same was true for The Pickle until tonight.  He has hundreds of words and expressions but Momma hasn't expected anything life-changing.  We've been hearing a lot of "truck" and "puppy" and "airplane" but what I got tonight knocked my Momma socks off.

In the midst of a toddler meltdown (complete with crocodile tears) Momma got an unexpected neck hug.  Pickle brought our faces together, side-by-side, cheek-to-cheek, and declared, "I love you!"

I melted.

So wonderful.  So tragic.  So.....much.  How do I express it?

Peanut, I believe you are working your magic through your brother.  That you are present in these amazing moments.

But still...I miss you so very much.  My heart aches for you.  My arms and neck long for your Peanut hugs.

I wish the world had gotten the chance to hear you declare "I love you!"

Regardless, you know I love you...to the moon - and back!

- Momma



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