I Can't Look At The Stars

Peanut -

Today has been a bad day.  A hard day.  Momma has struggled to be "OK" today.  It's the first time, in a long time, that I've had the urge to simply crawl into bed and never crawl out.  And then I heard this amazing song by Grace Potter and the Nocturnals (lyrics below).  Her voice, the words...they echo my soul crying for you tonight.  Every night.  Forever.

I miss you.  I long for the space to grieve for you.  I want to be with you.    I miss you and love you.  To the moon - and back.

- Momma

I lit a fire with the love you left behind, 
And it burned wild and crept up the mountainside. 
I followed your ashes into outer space 
I can't look out the window, 
I can't look at this place, 

I can't look at the stars, 
They make me wonder where you are 
Stars, 
Up on heaven's boulevard 
And if I know you at all, 
I know you've gone too far 
So I, I can't look at the stars 

All those times we looked up at the sky, 
Looking out so far, 
We felt like we could fly. 
And now I'm all alone in the dark of night, 
The moon is shining, 
But I can't see the light, 
And I can't look at the 

Stars, 
They make me wonder where you are 
Stars, 
Up on heaven's boulevard 
And if I know you at all, 
I know you've gone too far 
So I, I can't look at the stars 

Stars, 
Stars, 
They make me wonder where you are 
Stars, 
Up on heaven's boulevard 
And if I know you at all, 
I know you've gone too far 
So I can't look at the stars.